Another College Blog

  The weather here has been crazy.  We'll go from single digits, to the fifties, and then back down to 30 degrees all in a week.  My sisters have had way to much fun having me in town and have gotten really good at finding ways to have me dressed without my parents finding out.  Jenna is much more vulnerable than I am and I can really see just how far he's been taken.  With the new year, my big resolution is to figure out how I can graduate in 4 years + 1 semester.  I would be fine with graduating at this time next year.  By the way, check out my legs and guess who has had to go to a tanning salon.  I hope you all are doing well and I will be writing more.

My sister Holly got me this dress for Christmas.  She was nice enough to give it to me in private (well Jenna and my other sister Kim were there, but no folks). I think it makes me look about 90 pounds soaking wet.  I'm petite for a guy, but not compared to most girls. It's scary to me that I'm no longer worried about being read just walking down the street or going someplace in public. It's only when I'm very physically close or having an intimate conversation that I worry I'll be found out. I've even gotten used to the uncomfortable heels, bras, and other implements of torture. It's really just the humiliation of having to spend so much of my time carrying myself as a woman that still bothers me.

 I'm sorry that it's been so long since I have posted, I'm not actually even in any trouble for it.  I had a chance at straight A's this quarter and my grades the first two years weren't exactly stellar.  I blame it on the major changes that I went through, but the girls have other reasons.  Anyway, I went out shopping today with my sisters and my mom decided to come along which meant that I didn't have go as Kayla, but that didn't mean my sisters were going to let me shop for what I wanted to.  Here I am with about 1,000 women buying shoes as part of a big post-Christmas sale. I have an internship next semester and I've already had to work on finding a placement.  Unfortunately, Mia and the gang think I'll be doing some sort of fashion design internship as Kayla.  This is a strictly Kevin class because there is no way, I would be able to do the paperwork to take this class as a girl and also that would be too difficult an environment to pass in. ...

  Merry Christmas!  Just like last year I'm supposed to post updates to let Mia and everybody know that I'm still very femmy and dressing that way. Unlike last year, I have two very nosy sisters who are absolutely loving watching me go through this humiliation. In fact, they've gotten rather bossy.  They are determined to find me a New Years dress and they really want to go out in public with me.  I'm still very scared about my parents finding out too. It's been all about Christmas since we get home so I guess the real break starts tomorrow.

  Well, things are going to be weird going forward there is no doubt about it.  Mia has really been pushing to send me further and further into dresses and heels.  She put out an open call for donations and her friends really contributed. One of the things that she is insisting on is that I keep dressing up over Christmas and post so that everybody knows I'm doing this.  I won't pretend to be happy about this because I really thought if I cooperated and let them do their thing with Kayla, that I wouldn't be feminized.  As you can see, it didn't go that way.  It's weird that I feel really overweight, but I'm actual pretty close to my ideal weight.  The problem is the ideal weight guy is not the ideal weight girl. I'm going to have to get dolled up in the next few days including makeup and post a pic in front of the Christmas tree. I'm watching makeup tutorials in every free moment. We'll see how it goes.   Merry Christmas, Fiona Pictures (Cloc...

Well, it finally happened.  I'm back in black or my hair is back to black at least. You can see how thrilled I am by the smile in the last picture. I never thought I'd go blonde and it's such a long process, but geez the thought of explaining to my parents why I went blonde is just terrifying. I really can use the Christmas break although I'm very nervous about how things will go with my sisters.  If I had to deal with the repercussions of being blonde, it might have been too much to bear.  I think my hair looks shinier than it used to and it has more bounce, but I can hide that in a ponytail.  

  This picture of me was from the Christmas party. I only got two gifts, I got breast forms.  I'm usually a B Cup, but this is breast forms plus a bra that's supposed to increase my bust size a cup.  Geez, it's weird looking at me stacked. The forms cost a bunch and are the only Christmas gift I got besides an appointment for boudoir photography. I only have to post every 3 days when I'm home, but I will be required to go out in public dressed. I'll try and keep posting regularly.